Cathedral Confirmation 2010-2011

Abuse

When a child is a victim of abuse by a member of their family, their world has changed forever. They may have loved their abuser and the abuser has turned the relationship into something sadistic and cruel. The victim of abuse is likely to feel very confused. How can they sort out the feelings of affection that they have for their abuser with the sick and disgusting act that was done to them. Feelings that result from abuse should not be buried away. As painful as it is, victims must talk about their experience and share their pain with others. Finding meaning in suffering is the road to healing.

Lost Innocence

This young girl kept from sight
crying into the middle of the night
she fears that others will sense the shame
but was this girl really too blame?
this little girl who was full of belief
could not from him seem to find relief
she feels so dirty with her clothes which are tore
when she is being flung on the bedroom floor
this broken child lost her innocence at a very young age
through a trusted mans deliberate drunken rage
her little broken heart was full of pain
through the rest of her life it would stain
people would see the bruises that lay upon her face
she wanted and longed for her special place
while he was looking around
this little girl couldn't make a sound
she couldn't have her own bed
he would be there touching her instead
taking her clothes off he would touch
this haunted her little heart so much
she just wanted him to understand
but instead she got the back of his hand
night after night she endured this pain
never to be happy ever again
this little angel from above
could not find the slightest inch of love
this mountain of unnoticed fear
went on year after year
while she was crying silent tears
he was tucking into some beers
why would no one come to her aid
day after day her happiness would fade
this went on for so, so long
and no one thought that this was wrong
this little girl that no one could save
she longed for her peaceful grave

 

You...

I told you how I felt
but you turned the other cheek
I was basically rejected
I feel so small, so very weak

I found the reason why I always keep to myself
I hate this feeling of pain
Of being rejected like I'm not good enough
This will happen never again

I'm tired of letting people in
I'm tired of being alone
I'm tired of being rejected and hurt
This is it that feelings gone

I'm not gonna let you in
I'm not gonna let you see my tears fall
I'm not gonna let you see me hurt
I'm not gonna let you bring me down most of all

I told you how I felt
Because I wanted you to know
But apparently you would never feel the same
So I guess its time for me to go

 

Rejected...

Being alone is one of the saddest conditions for a human being to experience. You may feel alone with your family, if you think that no one understands you. Often people are afraid to share who they are because they think that they will be rejected. However, if you are not sharing who you are, you are not truly with the people you love. On the other hand when you share you true self, you risk being rejected. Often individuals seek people out of the family unit with whom they can share themselves without fear of rejection yet still, they are rejected...

 

she is lost
afraid
afraid of everything
she doesn't know where to go
left or right
up or down
she is trapped
nobody understands her
she is in a box
she is lost
how does she go on
she feels like her life is over
she tries to fit in
but she cannot
she wants to disappear to nowhere
she cannot talk to anyone
her life is upside down
where does she go
what does she do
why is her life like this
did chose her to be this way
why me lord
am I the one you want to live like this
am I the special one
did I do something wrong
do I belong on this earth
I am lost

 

 

I don't know

Inside I'm crying
outside I'm smiling
no one notices
but its hard for me to control this
when you see me walk by
it doesn't look like it but I want to die
thoughts racing through my head
then comes the tears that I shed
how can I change
all the tears and rage
you say you understand
and all I need is a helping hand
that may be true
but first take a walk in my shoes
sadness, angers, and unbearable pain
you'll be taking a walk full of nothing but shame
as time moves slower
my self-esteem gets lower
am I nothing to this world
or am I just a worthless girl?

 

Lost and broken

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
when you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?
When you feel like you've hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When your in your house but it don't feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems too long.

 

I'll Keep It Hidden

 

My world is falling, crumbling apart, life is meaningless & that's just the start
My hearts so sore, I can feel it breaking & I swear to God it leaves me shaking
Late at night till early in the morning, lying in bed eyes wide open. Didn't sleep last night, like all the others, instead I just lie crying in the covers
Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near. must hide this depression & the feelings of fear
For all they know I'm happy & always smiling, but deep inside my soul is dying
I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream, but I won't let it... not for the time being
I can never tell them how I feel cause the happiness I wear to them is real
For them to hear that I wish I was dead... it would kill them, they'd be filled with dread
So I'll try my best not to be selfish, I'll keep my secret hidden & just let them rest
but God I can't take it much longer... I'll probably be dead before they even wonder.

 

Because Of You

I hate you for what you've done to me
My life is in pieces can't you see
you might have forgotten
but I never will
because of you I want to kill
no I don't want to kill you
I want to kill me
Cuz I can't live with what
you made me be

I tried to leave this world
leave it all behind
not one will find me

in the nick of time

So now they think I'm crazy
and maybe I am
but always remember
I will never call you friend
because of you I can never mend

 

I'm in darkness

Darkness all around me.
No light... its suffocating.
I'm begging it to kill me.
But the more I beg the longer I seem to live.
The longer I live the darker it gets.
There is pain, sorrow ..........

 

Glory all around

We must look to the Resurrection of Christ to fully understand the Lord's Day. 

What glorious future and salvation of life, the Lord’s death and Resurrection has given us! The Resurrection of Christ is not just an Easter story, and Easter is not just a happy ending to the Jesus story! Rather, Jesus’ Resurrection is the beginning of new life for humanity, almost like the beginning of creation where Jesus himself is presented to us in the form of the new Adam. The Resurrection marks eternal life for all who believes. Christ’s triumph over the grave is Heaven’s pledge to us that we too shall be raised. This is why Jesus is referred to as the “firstfruits of them that are asleep” (1 Corinthians 15:20, 23). ." The word "firstfruits" speaks of a sampling, a foretaste, a glimpse. Jesus is the firstfruit – and as Paul says in Romans, ‘the firstfruit of many brothers and sisters.’ (Rom. 8:29). The salvation we receive through Christ’s Resurrection is knowing that we are those brothers and sisters.

 In His Resurrection, the promise of a risen savior was authenticated so that all Christians would have hope and trust in the promise of eternal life. Throughout scriptures, we are reminded of the importance of Christ’s Resurrection. 1 Corinthians 15:14 speaks of our faith; our faith would be worthless. It is our faith in the risen Lord that saves us. In the Gospel reading Matt 14:22-33, Peter’s faith was tested. Peter called out to the Lord, “if it is you, tell me to come to you across the water.” This is not just a story of faith, but also of obedience to God, as Jesus cried out to Peter; ‘Come’ Peter had enough faith to believe. And he demonstrates his faith into action. But when the strong wind bought the element of fear upon him, he began to sink. Then he cried out to the risen Lord, and he was saved. Like Peter, we are to have faith in the Resurrected Christ and we are to be obedient to the word of God in keeping His commands. Faithful children of God reflect upon the Savior’s Resurrection every Sunday (the resurrection day –John 20:1). Easter is indeed the story that lives forever. Psalm 118 identifies the day of Christ’s exaltation as a day of rejoicing and gladness. This is the origin of the term “the Lord’s day.” Every Sunday, we are reminded of that Christian joy - the day Christ rose from the dead, breaking the chains of death, bringing an end to sin and bestowing the gift of peace.

In his Apostolic Letter Dies Domini, “The Day of the Lord,” Pope John Paul II invited us to think more deeply about time itself in order to appreciate God’s gift of the Lord’s Day. He writes (#7), “Do not be afraid to give your time to Christ! ...He is the One who knows the secret of time and the secret of eternity, and He gives us ‘His day’ as an ever new gift of His love. The rediscovery of this day is a grace which we must implore, not only so that we may live the demands of faith to the full, but also so that we may respond concretely to the deepest human yearnings. Time given to Christ is never time lost, but is rather time gained, so that our relationships and indeed our whole life may become more profoundly human.” This is what God calls to our attention through the third of the Ten Commandments: “Remember to keep holy the Lord’s Day.” As faithful servants of Christ, we are called to obedience to God. From the beginning, God set aside one day of the week to be different from the others. He called it the Sabbath; it was meant to be a day for rest and worship. Jesus Himself affirmed the value of the Sabbath, saying (Mk 2:27), “The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath. That is why the Son of Man is Lord even of the Sabbath.” Sundays, however, when preserved as days of rest, bring a healthy rhythm to our lives, remind us of the value of both work and leisure, and renew our eagerness for spending eternity with the Lord who made us.

Here is what the Catechism of the Catholic Church teaches (#2181), “The Sunday Eucharist is the foundation and confirmation of all Christian practice. For this reason the faithful are obliged to participate in the Eucharist on days of obligation, unless excused for a serious reason (for example, illness, the care of infants) or dispensed by their own pastor. Those who deliberately fail in this obligation commit a grave sin.”

Sunday recalls the day of Christ's Resurrection. It is also a reminder to faithful Christians that the presence of the Living Christ is always with us. "Sunday is not only the remembrance of a past event; it is a celebration of the living presence of the Risen Lord in the midst of his own people .” . . Pope John Paul II.

"Satisfied"

"Satisfied"

If you love somebody
You better let it out
Don't hold it back
While you're trying to figure it out
Don't be timid
Don't be afraid to hurt
Run toward the flame
Run toward the fire
Hold on for all your worth
Cause the only real pain a heart can ever know
Is the sorrow of regret
When you don't let your feelings show

So did you say it ?
Did you mean it ?
Did you lay it on the line ?
Did you make it count ?
Did you look 'em in the eye ?
Did they feel it ?
Did you say it in time ?
Did you say it out loud ?
'cause if you did hun
Then you lived some
That feeling inside
That's called satisfied

Busy people walking by
Can't help but worry some
With so many things to do
So little love gets done
Empty hearts everywhere
Drowning but dying of thirst
If you want love
It's not that tough
Start by giving it first
It's so easy to give
Baby can't you see
Just close your eyes open your heart
And do what comes naturally

Well did you say it ?
Did you mean it ?
Did you lay it on the line ?
Did you make it count ?
Did you look 'em in the eye ?
Did they feel it ?
Did you say it in time ?
Did you say it out loud ?
'cause if you did hun
Then you lived some
That feeling inside
That's called satisfied


Horses are built to run
The sun is meant to shine above
Flowers are made to bloom
And then there's us
We were born to love...
We were born to love


So did you say it ?
Did you mean it ?
Did you lay it on the line ?
Did you make it count ?
Did you look 'em in the eye ?
Did they feel it ?
Did you say it in time ?
Did you say it out loud ?
'cause if you did hun
Then you lived some
That feeling inside
That's called satisfied....

So did you say it?      I did...but then that feeling inside...it made me cry today.

So many sayings gone wrong...

When all else fails, try Jesus. - What if you've been trying Jesus all the time? then you fail. Then you try Jesus again? and again? and again? and again? Yet you're never going to be good enough!

No man is an island . - Every day I'm seeing proof that this is such a lie. Yes, a person can be alone, as alone as lonely can be. People die of grief and loneliness. Some try to reach out to others for prayer and comfort but is rejected. They are alone! Others are sick, and no one can understand their sickness...their pain...their hurt. They are alone! Others have secrets...deep secrets that they long to tell but won't for fear of rejection. They are alone!
An island! and there's no one there- there never was and there never will be anyone there...

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Truly...madly...deeply...fallen...

When God ordains something to happen, it does...and in His timing too.

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